Demi Lovato appeared on the Ellen DeGeneres show and talked about her dark episodes.
It has been a year and a half since Demi Lovato was hospitalized for an overdose. On Thursday’s episode of The Ellen DeGeneres Show, the 27-year-old singer recalled her relapse and battles with an eating disorder.
The Sorry Not Sorry star told Ellen DeGeneres that during the past six years she lived a life that didn’t feel like her.
“My life, I just felt, was so – and I hate using this word – but I felt that many people around me controlled it,” she said. “If I was in my hotel room at night, they would take the phone from the hotel room so I couldn’t call room service. Or, if there was fruit in my room, they would take it out because that’s extra sugar. We’re not talking about brownies, cookies, candy and stuff. It was fruit.”
DeGeneres also claimed that Lovato’s former team hid the sugar from the dressing room of the two-time Grammy nominee, and Lovato said they checked their bank statements to see what she ordered at Starbucks. In addition, the celebrity Confident said she ate watermelon with fat-free whipped cream instead of birthday cake for years.
“It became a kind of continuous joke,” she said, “but I really wanted a birthday cake.”
Over time, Lovato, who had been sober since she was 19, became “very, very unhappy.”
“My bulimia got really bad,” she said. “I asked for help, and I didn’t get the help I needed. So I got stuck in this unhappy position. Here I am sober and thinking, ‘I am six years sober, but I am miserable. I am even more miserable than when I was drinking. Why? am I sober? ”
She remembered approaching the former members of her team and they told her that she was “being very selfish” and that “this would ruin things” for them too.
“My central problems are the abandonment of my biological father as a child,” she said. “He was an addict, an alcoholic and we had to quit. I have vivid memories of his departure. So, when they left, they totally played with that fear and I felt completely abandoned. So I drank.”
That night, Lovato went to a party, where “there were other things.” Three months later, she suffered an overdose and was hospitalized.
“Finally, I made the decision that led me to where I am today,” she said. “It was my actions that put me in the position I am in. I think it is important that I feel here on this stage and tell you at home, or you in the audience or right here that if you go through this, you can get over it. They can get to the other side, and it can be bumpy, but they have a 10 out of 10. Don’t forget it. As long as you take responsibility, you can pass it on and learn to love yourself as you deserve to be loved. ”
Lovato, who is now sober, continues to spread this message of self-love in his new single, I Love Me, which will be released this Friday.
“I had a moment this Saturday where I spent it alone. It was a Saturday night and I thought, ‘You know, it’s a night of self-care. I’m going to take a shower, give me a massage.’ And I just had this moment of happiness after taking care of myself. where I was, I started laughing alone in my room, “he said at the beginning of the interview. “The phrase that was repeated in my head was, ‘You are completely whole as you are, without anyone, without substances, without this meal, whatever. You are good, girl. And that is what I want everyone to know. That’s why that this song that will come out is called I Love Me. It’s like, we are good for ourselves. We don’t need a partner, we don’t need substances. We are good. ”
She is no longer with her old team.
“This year, when I turned 27, you know I have a new team, and Scooter Braun, my manager, gave me the best birthday cake,” she said in the interview. “I spent it with Ariana Grande, who is one of my good friends. Simply, we had the best birthday. I remember crying because I was finally eating cake with a manager who didn’t need anything from me and who loved for what I am and supports my trip I think that at some point it becomes dangerous to try to control someone’s food when they are recovering from an eating disorder. ”
After appearing on The Ellen DeGeneres Show, Lovato went to Instagram to thank the hostess for allowing her to share her experience.
“I was so excited that I cried when I left the stage,” she said in part of the post. “Thank you Ellen for providing me with a platform to tell my truth.”
COMMENTS